Sometimes you just need to cry it out.
Trust me, it’ll at least make you feel lighter.
Sometimes you just need a hug from anyone.
Trust me, it’ll make you feel safer and loved.
Sometimes you just need someone who will just listen.
Trust me, it’ll somehow make you soothed.
Sometimes you just need to be alone.
It’ll make you more independent.
Sometimes you just need someone to be there.
It’ll establish your confidence.
But sometimes no one is an option.
Sometimes its just you.
Sometimes we’re all we have.
I'm up late contemplating life. Am I that hard on myself? Am I allowed to be mad at myself? Is this middle age crises came to soon? Life's really a hell of a ride. But you gotta do, what you gotta do to survive and live your life to the fullest.
Its just the cringe and self regret of the things I so irresponsibly did. From the simple ignoring of someone's opinion to saying no instead of yes.
What I learn is that,…
Life will teach you that lesson constantly, over and over again until you learned it whole heartedly.
So regrets be dammed,…
You are what you are right now because of those lessons learned.
Be strong, courageous and never say no to things you really want. Opportunities rarely knock on the same door twice.
Suddenly i was surrounded by this blue bubble. A bubble that i didnt think would exist and alter the contentment i was having earlier. Is it me or the world’s just so uncertain. Agrrhh.
So many thingssss. So manyyyyy.
How life throws you marshmallows and whole nuts sometimes. Well I don’t know if I could consider the news I’ve received today as a good one or not. I’ve been waiting for how long now and I’ll still be waiting for like a few months. Its just that there are these what if’s in my mind and time is running also Im running out of plans and resources. I don’t know what to do. Oh if life is as smooth and creamy as chocolate syrup I would perfectly dive in. ( and yeah I’m craving for a rocky road ice cream )
Sometimes you have those off day. Days you don’t feel great. Days were it seems that the optimism button can’t be turned on and the happiness pill are all drowned in the sink filled with water so they are both useless.
You don’t feel like doing anything even though the sun is shining brightly and triumphantly in the sky, but here you are stock in your bedroom don’t have anything you want to eat or do or drink. Making all the pity questions in your head that you weren’t suppose to be thinking in the first place. I don’t know i just feel so off today.
Oh well by the way i do apologize for not writing in the past months I’ve been occupied by a lot of things. And here I am writing how off my Monday is even though its just half of the day probably later I’ll find a magic wand and turn this off day into a nice one. But certainly I did accomplish writing something today. That would be a great start though.