When words fail, I turn to painting. When colors fail, I turn to sketching. When pencil fails, I turn to writing. My life and each of ours are work of arts. We just need to learn which suits our feelings best.
I am torn between the present and the future. Every fact I discover, Every direction I turn, Every situation I face and every decision I make, I know will alter whatever's in my future. I'm just uncertain now, and I know I shouldn't worry or stress my self about it. Because no one knows what their future certainly holds for them. But I just can't stop my mind from going there.
There'll gonna be instances when you will doubt your decisions. Just always remember why you came up with that decision, what you felt about that moment and forget what the rest of the world says. Because its yours to live and you don't give a fuck about theirs.
One thing that I could really validate is that life teaches us lessons over and over, until we learn what is it teaching us, until we know what we should do and not do, until then it won't stop teaching us the same lesson over again.
I'm up late contemplating life. Am I that hard on myself? Am I allowed to be mad at myself? Is this middle age crises came to soon? Life's really a hell of a ride. But you gotta do, what you gotta do to survive and live your life to the fullest.
Its just the cringe and self regret of the things I so irresponsibly did. From the simple ignoring of someone's opinion to saying no instead of yes.
What I learn is that,…
Life will teach you that lesson constantly, over and over again until you learned it whole heartedly.
So regrets be dammed,…
You are what you are right now because of those lessons learned.
Be strong, courageous and never say no to things you really want. Opportunities rarely knock on the same door twice.
How life throws you marshmallows and whole nuts sometimes. Well I don’t know if I could consider the news I’ve received today as a good one or not. I’ve been waiting for how long now and I’ll still be waiting for like a few months. Its just that there are these what if’s in my mind and time is running also Im running out of plans and resources. I don’t know what to do. Oh if life is as smooth and creamy as chocolate syrup I would perfectly dive in. ( and yeah I’m craving for a rocky road ice cream )